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ameru
13 December 2020 @ 09:01 am


this journal is not friends only ╰(・△・ ) Friends only posts are really just more personal info and other scribbles. If you wish to be added let me know! This is an daily life blog! I update my artblog at writeamemo often enough so I hope you enjoy there.



I apologize beforehand that I'm terrible at replying comments on LJ... If you must contact me you can reach my email at ameruu.gmail.com

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ameru
27 March 2011 @ 04:49 pm
“If you want to be happy, be.”
— Leo Tolstoy


I really like this saying, and I've always believed in controlling my own attitude and happiness from the moment I wake up to the moment I slip into bed at night to sleep. Though, I understand it is a rather simplistic way of thought, and is not so easily achieved. Even if it is hard to choose to be happy, it's not impossible, therefore warrant the need to be tried.

After all, we only live once.
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ameru
13 February 2011 @ 01:34 am


Mont Blanc! :D It's V-Day soon, and since I didn't have a sweetie, I went to buy some to fill my mouth xD I also got some macarons that were superb, as always, as always from that store.

Anyway, my parents are back from Taiwan finally! YESSSS. I can chill a bit more now OTL and be much less OCD around the house. I'm really grateful and happy they are back! They also brought food ;w; it tastes so good, because... well it's my home country. Though I am pretty torn about this home country business, since I'm attached here. *slight identity crisis*

I'm currently in that rut stage where I'm not sure what I want to do with drawing. I know areas I have to improve, but I'm not sure about what kind of end product I wish to have. I'm really too lazy these days to work on anything for more than 2 hours OTL; Technically I'm not emo, I'm just lost about what I want, and where I want to be in terms of drawing. I doubt I'll be doing more full CGs these days, but I enjoy colouring sketches and such. Aiyaa I don't know what I am saying here LOL.

I guess we can just leave it at that OTL
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ameru
17 January 2011 @ 12:33 am
I have returned.


Sometimes I touch that cyst on my head and dream about it turning into a horn.

I received my schedule for school starting in a week. IT'S A SCHEDULE FROM HELL. I will embrace my fate soon enough. My parents are leaving this week to China, and Taiwan. It's a special trip for them because they will get to spend Chinese New Years with their parents :D I'm very happy for them. My sister is leaving again to school as well. Tomorrow we're going to have a family night where my sister and I share a few photos from our trips.

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ameru
10 January 2011 @ 11:14 am
First entry of the year! I was going to post earlier, but well I didn't xD; Pretty much spent new year sick, but I'm totally better~ I got many lovely cards from friends :') Anyway, I usually make new years resolution post.



I didn't put any kind of fix-your-attitude in there, but there definitely are. I was reflecting upon it and suddenly was reminded of my trip to Dachau, Germany (What grim thoughts on a New Year). After my visit there, I didn't want to think about it much. But.. while I was contemplating making resolutions I decided it's best if I did. I want to stop complaining so much about things I have to do and be grateful of what I have, so I'm going to remember Dachau.

why does that sound so grim xD

My funnest/ most challenging resolution I think will be the Fish one. It'll be like.. hardcore survivor. Gonna get that fish, kill it, cook it, eat it o3o;; So I can appreciate the sacrifice of the fish and food on my table.

Anywayyy that's it~ else I've been to the usual rolling around and doing art projects~~ It's going to be a great new year :DDD
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ameru
30 December 2010 @ 12:14 pm
Since I am procrastinating starting some art project, I am going to recap this year, in a long, boring post :D



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ameru
28 December 2010 @ 12:30 am
I REALLY SUCK AT REPLYING LJ MESSAGES QAQ;;; SO SORRY!!

in other news I PASSED THE HARDEST CLASS I HAVE.


^q^ hahahah
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ameru
22 December 2010 @ 12:32 pm
So the year is almost over. I am sad to hear many of my f-list suffering from losses - especially with pets ToT My sympathies to you.

[monologue] : my constructive reflections on my own artwork

Else, my exams ended last week, and like any crazy person I embarked on my journey to complete Christmas cards on time /facepalm. Which I accomplished mind you o3o /patselfonback. I... can't look at another Christmas card hahaha No more cards till Valentines day. Else, while drawing these cards I do reflect a lot about what needs to be done in order for me to improve, or what area of art should I improve in. I don't often think much, so bear with my almost non existent gray matter.

→ I constantly face this dissatisfaction of lacking consistency in my artworks. I finally concluded I like too many kinds of things to be consistent. I like trying various styles to reach various feelings get various atmospheres I want. But like anyone else I do get wrapped up in self-loathing, but this is useless, stfu and do something about it. Honestly, just shut up.
→ Wasting time complaining ain't helping anyone, especially not you. Using derogatory terms for your own works isn't helping much.
→ There was a good article about getting into the illustrating field, the author talked about sorting our your life. I like to add that understanding yourself will probably help you find how to improve.
→ That aside, I think about what is stopping me from improving? Mostly fear. I told myself I should draw a sketch of a building per day, but I haven't started yet. xD Why? cuz I'm scared to fail. But someone should punch me in the face, cuz it's better to fail while trying than to fail forever not trying (so heaven help me i will start today).
→ Find inspiration. Recently been in a rut for inspiration, and getting feelings into my drawings. It's funny that making myself draw isn't the problem; sometimes it's getting life into it to flow xD Gotta look for inspiration, but not to spend too much time on it as to not waste drawing time.
→ Stick with it. I let go of drawings in their beginning phase too early T_T;; My attention spam is terrible.
→ If you wonder if your drawings have any worth, let yourself decide first. Depending on other people's opinion all the time is not a conclusive way to determine whether your art has worth or not. It's great for people to love your artwork, but it really comes down to you. Are you drawing for yourself or for other people? I like drawing because it makes me happy and relaxed.
→ remembering my own goals as an artist: improve as much as I can (at the same time realizing my limits and acknowledging it), Getting feelings across, Having fun in fandoms with friends.
→ When I have an artblock I don't stop drawing, i keep drawing till i feel like it xD.
→ Keep trying and try different things. I overcame my fear of ink and watercolour just this year @__@. Else I keep thinking I need to do something by myself... better start doing than just thinking
→ Just have fun. Unlike other people, this isn't my job, so I'll just have fun.

Anyway I just wanted to write these thoughts down. Hopefully I can remember this.
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ameru
12 December 2010 @ 09:46 am
When I study, i feel like I try to procrastinate every way possible. This is terrible haha _ノ乙(、ン、)anyway. You know when you study, you start thinking about everything else but that you are studying? Recently I've been really fancying the thoughts of what will happen after I finish my studies. The good thing about it is that, after I settle down I will have time to do other things (or so it seems from what I hear from everyone else) which gives me an opportunity to work on artsy stuff. I've been really excited about the indie artisan front as of late, and I guess dream about getting into such things. I told mkage about getting into indie comics, and she was like ME TOO! I got really excited xD and I was like nag nag nag her to do it. Anyway, that's what I dream about. I hope to do it??? At least now I have made some practice in comicing.

We can always dream big. Boys and Girls be Ambitious.

As for exams: it's just a moment, this too shall pass.
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ameru
03 December 2010 @ 04:37 pm
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La Maison du Macaron

MACARON! :D I had my first macaron in Paris at Ladurée under the push of my friend Fatima, bless her heart. These are expensive stuff, but man are they good. Since my stay in Paris I have not had a macaron till.. last week! OH MAN. Anyway, I already on my second box xD i'mafatty. So what is macaron?? It's two light almond cookies with ganache in the middle :9 and there's many different flavours. I seriously love it! I hope you guys can try it too *A*

wow pretty pointless entry, but omgosh macarons!!! guys gotta try this stuff!!

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CHRISTMAS IS COMING SOON YAYYYYYYYYYYYY
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